Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Bye, sweet sixteen!
Tomorrow, I will kiss sixteen goodbye as time makes me a year older.
Maybe I won't be as sweet as I was when I was sixteen. Through a recent experience, I have become more of STRONG. And I'm loving it just as much.
Chesca last year wore high heels all the time. Chesca this year went for flipflops. Chesca last year would sulk for days over a loss or rejection. But Chesca this year would be down for a minute and thriving again the next.
Chesca has grown in all aspects. She has learned more from boys, modeling, school, and everyday encounters with different kinds of people.
I tell you guys, even if I don't win the Candy Teen Model Search, I know I still won somehow. I'm proud to say during the go-sees and the shoot, I made friends with almost everybody. Among the eight finalists, I know I am not the prettiest or the smartest or the most talented. But I guess I was the one who cared about people most. Knowing that seemingly trivial fact makes me a winner in my own right. Being one of the eight is quite an accomplishment already! ;)
Despite the changes though, I still am Chesca Sumilang. I remain transparent, outspoken, independent, headstrong, a little crazy, humorous, and ever-compassionate. I've had people bring me down for years already yet I'm proud to have survived. Oh, and I still know I'm imperfect by every inch.
And I thank God for making me human.
As much as I care about others, I take pride in the same kind of care others have showed me. My family, my barkada, my online buddies (with some I discovered to be real friends as well), my special friends, my boys (guy friends, silly!), my past enemies, my haters and fakers, the two kids who begged me to buy their ylang-ylang so they could go home (it was raining that time), the kids I got to talk to in the orphanage, and all the other people who've somehow touched my life... THANK YOU. You have been a part of my life whether you like it or not. LOL. Without you guys, I wouldn't be here. I wouldn't be as strong and as experienced as I am now. I know that by heart, no need to remind me. :)
Sixteen will never come again in this girl's life.
But then she figured seventeen would be much better!
Can't wait for tomorrow!
