Saturday, September 03, 2005
...but I am cleaning up so well.
Oh yes. I am cleaning up so friggin well. ;)
A lesson learned today: To get you in an I'm-actually-excited-to-study mood, exercise.
I had to wake up at 6 AM for the 7-AM nook cleanup at school. I thought all we had to do was clear out the nook of unneeded stuff but when I got there, everyone was scrubbing the whole place clean! I didn't know what to do and I think my OC-ness with stains caused us to take too long. After moments of searching for the perfect cleaning role, I ended up as the water girl. In Filipino, ang tagapuno at tagadala ng balde ng tubig.
After the girl BOPS and our adungis JE, since he was the only guy present that time, were finished disinfecting the Psych Soc tambayan, I passed around my plastic bag of gummy candies. Everyone just needed a sugar fix since we were all tired and madungis that time.
After a while, I decided to go home since I needed to review for my Soc Sci 2 exam on Monday. Well, what do you know? I've read five chapters straight considering my verrry short attention span. Sure, I got bored. But it was a real mental challenge to not get distracted. Thanks to the early morning balde-carrying I did. ;)
I've decided to give this new attitude shift a try. Okay, so my dreams of becoming a College Scholar seem harder to grasp as each exam result comes out. Then again, I'll be working extra hard for better grades even if I still don't get to be a CS. I realized it's about time I got more serious. I've masked my insecurity of not getting the same grades as those geniuses in my classes by believing I'm actually okay with being mediocre. It's about time I broke free from my inhibitions and went for greater heights.
Vindicated. I am selfish. I am wrong. I am right. I swear I'm right. Swear I knew it all along. And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well. I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself...
I'm cleaning up so damn well.
