Saturday, April 30, 2005
...yOuLL hAfTa TrY hArDeR tHaN tHaT...
Ooh, guess what. It was a perfectly beautiful morning as I woke up, and just like every ordinary boring summer day, I headed straight to the computer. (Of course, I brushed my teeth and washed my face first! LOL.) Oh, and just as I tried to open my then present and active Friendster account, the horror of horrors happened.
THIS ACCOUNT HAS BEEN SUSPENDED.
I was like, WTF?!, and I tried again. But no, I really was suspended. Just like what happened to my first private account. (It didn't matter to me already then because I had a new account already.)
Some psycho must have reported me for I dunno what friggin reason. And whatever that reason is, evildoer, you will burn in hell. LOL. I dunno if I seriously mean that. You just will.
On a lighter note, AND I STILL HAD THE PATIENCE TO SEE THINGS ON A LIGHTER NOTE, LOL!, we're going to the Bangus Festival later. It's been a yearly celebration eversince 2002 I think. I heard they're even making it more extravagant to reclaim the Guiness record from Turkey.
Guess this Friendster thing FAILED to get the best of me.
Bangus Festival, here I come! ;)
Thursday, April 28, 2005
...bAcK tO mE!!
Slowly, I think I'm back to my good ol' self. ;)
► I organized a little get-together with my friends earlier. Jill, Les, Alkaide, Judz, Joe, and Yani were there. We watched Ms. Congeniality 2. I had fun being with them. Les even explained why they weren't at the batch party. She texted me the invitation to their fiesta before the Ahh okie..Ü message, and unfortunately, I wasn't able to receive it. Anyway, I was able to understand. We can't do anything about it anymore, right? We all enjoyed the movie... LAUGHTRIP! Jill and I just loved it!
► It's the first time I ate rice in one whole week. And guess what, my migraine's now cured! LOL. Now I swear not to skip rice. No more dieting, just EXERCISE. There's nothing like living the healthy way! ;)
► Ms. Congeniality is really my movie. Picture a girl normally un-poised who is pressured to look good for other people. That is sooo me. Notice the loud laughter (sans the snorting!) and the clumsiness. And best of all, I can defend myself. (Oh, and did you know that I won Ms. Friendship aside from being 1st Runner-Up during the Ms. Intramurals when I was still a freshie? ;D) I am Gracie Hart. ;)
► Being with my friends brought back good ol' me. I can't explain exactly how and why. It just did. And I love them for that! :)
Yes, I'm happy. I feel me coming back. ;)
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
...i DoN't kNoW mE aNyMoRe...
Something's wrong with me. I can feel it.
I've lost the perky feeling, and I've forgotten the last time I was genuinely happy.
I'm depressed--not just exaggeratedly depressed.
For the past few days I've been trying to convince myself I was happy. But no matter what I did, I always ended up longing for something unknown.
► I gave up the final casting for the farewell party, right? Coz I wanted to be with my barkada. But guess what, not one of them even showed up. Don't get me wrong, I wanted to see my batchmates too. But they weren't enough. I wanted to be with my barkada. Sette didn't go. I thought Les would go too since when I texted her that the party wasn't cancelled, she replied, "Oh okie!Ü. And the rest? No replies at all. I wonder why.
► Yesterday, my agency told me to attend a go-see for the 2005 Manila Fashion Festival fashion show. They gave me the venue already and even handed the setcards I needed. But hey, my setcards weren't updated. Sure, I've grown an inch since last year. But I still wasn't 5'5. And my setcards still said 5'3. We ended up deciding not to go anyway.
► Just because of this height thing, all the other insecurities have started creeping in again. I don't have a flat tummy, my formerly supermodel lean arms have put on more jelly, my hair has lost its crowning glory from all that basking in the sun... In terms of the heart? I found out that my not-so-longtime-but-super-major crush has been texting another girl. And I know the girl so well because she's like, a family friend?! Anyways. He didn't even text me good luck for my shoot last week. And that was the time he and the girl were texting to the max!
► THE GIRL. She's tall, she's thin, she's smart, and she's everyone's idea of a supermodel. Yeah, she's waaaay younger than crushie and she's been sooo open about her feelings for him. Now why wouldn't he like her back? I mean, he can have her the easy way. NAH. Stop it, Ches.
I'm not feeling so good about myself. I've concealed each and every thought for the last few days since I didn't want to talk senti with my mom or with anyone else. I just wanted to be alone.
Then again in my solace, I try to fight each and every urge to break down and cry. I'm in the deepest, darkest abyss of insecurity and depression.
I need to take a break. From MYSELF.
Friday, April 22, 2005
...HiTs aNd MiSsEs...
Please, please, please tell me I made the right choice.
I turned down another final casting for our batch's farewell party for tomorrow. Oh no, oh no, oh no. Bye bye commercial. LOL. Then again, I just could not miss our batch's farewell party.
It was a right move, wasn't it?
WAAAAAAAA. I'm going NUTS. For real.
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
...
I know, I left with such short notice. I did not even leave a reason why I went to Manila. I was called in by a certain mag, which I will not disclose yet, for a shoot focusing on nails. It was actually my first real project. And boy was I excited.
Monday
I was supposed to go to Elan first coz Ms. Chinggay said I needed tp update my VTR file but because of the TRAFFIC, I ended up going to California Nails and Day Spa already for my nail appointment.
There was a transport strike and all, and I believe it just had to be the unluckiest day of my life! There was no cab at all that passed by Teacher's Village. Daddy Emo took Ate Keng, Ate Jack, and me to the MRT station. And guess what? Everyone was staring at me there. I don't mean this in an airhead kind of way. Who wouldn't head-to-foot someone clad in a tube top and low rise jeans in makeup riding an MRT infamously known for voyeurs and sex-crazed maniacs? LOL. We didn't get to ride anyway coz there were so many people. We went down again to get a cab. Just as we were about to go to Elan, Ms. Chinggay called up and told me to head straight to Market! Market! for the nail appointment. And guess what? When we arrived, Market! Market! was still closed. We had to wait for 30 more minutes before we went inside and before I waited another 30 for Ms. Erica of the magazine and Arianna, my co-model who has already graced the cover of Candy (and I can't remember what issue).
That doesn't end there. It took 5 hours to do our nails and the nail art altogether and during those five hours I wasn't able to eat lunch, considering I had a light breakfast! I only ate at 6pm when we finally got home. Ate Katch, Ate Keng, Ate Jack, and I conquered Ababu. Ox brain rawks, man! :)
Tuesday
Shoot Day. We shot at Eastwood. The pics showcased the nail art. Some of the shots had our faces included and some did not. I hope they do choose at least one pic where we could see our faces. LOL. Our photographer was Jay Yao and I swear, he was uber friendly! As in! It was really nice working with him.
After the shoot, I watched Samara: The Ring 2 with Ate Jack and Kuya Andrew. Even if I spent half the movie closing my eyes, I still couldn't sleep last night. LOL.
So that's just about it. The part I'm in will come out sometime in June. I'm so psyched about seeing myself in a magazine since it's my first time so bear with me!
Saturday, April 09, 2005
Off to Manila today, Davao tomorrow.
Please check out my graduation entry. ;)
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GRADUATION.
I never knew such a simple ceremony could elicit overpowering emotions.
I didn't expect much from our graduation ceremony. All I knew was I just had to attend the baccalaureate mass, deliver my valedictory address, go up the stage to get my awards, and finally sing the loyalty hymn and graduation song, Ain't No Mountain High Enough.
Little did I know that I would cry in the middle of my valedictory speech and that I would cry a river while hugging everyone during the graduation song. I hugged my girl friends with Val suffering from the tightest one, my pares, and just about anyone.
I got so tense during the graduation that after the ceremony, I was totally nauseous. When I got home, I threw up. After that, I threw up again in the van (in a plastic bag), and again at the party place's venue. (My parents threw a party for the three of us.)
After grad, my family and I had our pics taken. Our SLGP group pic followed after that, incomplete as usual. Alkaide wasn't there. LOL. (At least it wasn't me missing again! LOL.)
I can't believe this is the end of my high school days. I will miss my batchmates--all of them. Batch 2005 was like family to me. Although we still have a lot of differences to settle, each and every personality will have a special memory.
Batch 2005... ASTIG!
*Baccalaureate Mass.
*Graduation Ceremony.
*Valedictory Address.
More pics to come! ;)
Friday, April 08, 2005
...i LeFt My HeArT iN eScUdErO...
Here are the vacation pics (April 3-4) I promised you! :)
Point at the pics to see the captions.
*Villa Escudero
April 3, 2005
*Hotel Lobby
April 4, 2005
*Enchanted Kingdom
I was enjoying the rides so I left the cam with my mom.
So what was the thing I loved most about our vacation? It was rafting in the 30 feet-deep river. I faced my fears and rowed with all my might. My dad and I made the best team ever! :)
The vacation was super fun coz it was spent with both friends and family. I learned the value of family friends too! ;)
Saturday, April 02, 2005
Villa Escudero, EK, here I come! ;)
(Be back on Tuesday folks.)
By the way, last year at Newton College Entrance Review class (here in Dagupan), someone who reviewed there the previous year who got into a good school was asked to do a speech and to give tips.
Guess who this year's speaker will be! ;)
Friday, April 01, 2005
...CuRiEuNiOn...
Yesterday was our third year section, Curie, reunion. Since it was already vacation, we weren't complete but we still had a lot of fun. I reunited with my former junior classmates and my Curie barkada, the Bob-Ongs. Of course, we spent the afternoon with our former junior class adviser, Mr. Eric Cariño.
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*A reunion. (Clockwise, L-R) Brianne Du, Jen Tolete, Charles Floro, Mikhail Vallo, Loraine Rosario, Krish Erguiza, Maricris Zaplan, Sir Eric Cariño, Lara Marzal, Patrick Dizon, Alkaide Quita, Jill Calimlim, Les de Guzman, Cony Bartolome, me, & Felix de Guzman.
*Bob-Ongs. Another reunion of own. Where's Joe and Rajie?
*Yayness! We missed each other! :)
*Mmmm... Would you believe we cooked most of the food?
*Balloon Wars. May the force be with you.
*Lobo Girls. Jillie and me.
*Hmmmm... He's not from Curie. He's nothing but our camera man! :)
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I will miss the Curie memories, especially our surprise party for Sir Eric. I won't forget the Bob-Ongs I spent most of junior year with. I will miss the balcony where our group used to chitchat and hangout while waiting for our teachers.
I will always be a Curean at heart! <3
...cHuCkScHuCkScHuCkS...
Momskie, I want this! (I know you're reading my blog! =D)
Puh-leez? ;)
SPAM. ;)
Sew this up with threads of reason and regret
So I will not forget. I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago
I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget
I'm falling into memories of you, things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you
I can tell that you don't know me anymore
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget
I'm falling into memories of you, things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you
So many nights, legs tangled tight
Wrap me up in a dream with you
Close up these eyes, try not to cry
All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
I'm falling into memories of you ,things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that we can share
Falling into memories of you ,things we used to do
