Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Dreaming under Decolgen.
I went straight home from my Physics class today since I was not at all feeling well. In fact, I had been sneezing like crazy since Bio lab and have had this itch in my throat for the entire day. On my walk--err, sprint--from IB to Math Building, in which I still ended up late for class, I was drenched in sweat by the time I arrived. Worse, my joints felt even more sore.
(FYI, I was feeling almost the same thing last Friday. I was, however, saved from sickness as I chugged down a fruit shake while we were in the mall for emergency Vitamin C. But I swear, Tuesdays and Fridays really make me sick.)
And so I was bitchy the whole day, nevermind that the topics discussed in each of my classes were all interesting. I've always hated being sick, I have the tendency to believe I'm extremely helpless. I felt so much worse about myself because I was a sneezing feverish loser.
As soon as I got home, I grabbed a pack of Doritos, a Decolgen tablet, and a glass of water and sat down with my yaya who was watching The Lizzie McGuire Movie on HBO. My exact favorite part had been showing--the part wherein she sang onstage, conquering her fears, and of course, saying goodbye to the Loser status. I got teary-eyed, as I always do whenever I get to watch that scene for the nth time.
You see, I'm really a sucker for feel-good movies, especially those when geeks turn into prom queens, pop stars, rockstars, supermodels--overnight celebrities. Or when pretty faces in bright pink dresses conquer law school. Or when macho, clumsy women suddenly win beauty pageants.
In a funny way, I'm deeply inspired to dream that someday I will be somebody--that someday I will stop living in someone else's shadow.
These movies give me hope that maybe I, too, could have my own little moment of glory--not as drastic as being an overnight sensation, of course--but at least that special moment I'd feel genuinely good about myself as I conquer my fears, inhibitions, insecurities, and doubts.
There's hope for us, my dears. Our shining moments shall come to us in time.
And now I feel so much better.
:)
