Tuesday, March 28, 2006
For Margot.
For the one who always makes me cry whenever I remember her. :(
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Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do
Yeah, they were all yellow.
I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called "Yellow."
So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing took done,
And it was all yellow.
Your skin
Oh yeah, your skin and bones,
Turned into something beautiful,
You know
You know I love you so,
You know I love you so.
I swam across,
I jumped across for you,
Oh what a thing to do.
Cuz you were all yellow,
I drew a line,
I drew a line for you,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all yellow.
Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turned into something beautiful,
You know,
For you I'd bleed myself dry,
For you I'd bleed myself dry.
It's true, look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for...
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine...
Look at the stars;
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do.
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She's sick again, but they can't really treat her yet 'cause she's pregnant. I was crushed the last time I saw her. She was different. She didn't move much. She didn't even run when Girlie let her out of her cage. She couldn't jump up and down like she used to whenever she'd see me. She just slid her nose through one of the holes to touch mine.
And the ball I gave her's still lying around. Part of it's ripped off, but it's still lying around. Maybe I should pick it up next time and bring it to Manila. I need more things to remind me of her. But I need even more things to remind me of her happy days.
God bless my Marguerite. :(
(Suddenly I don't want to take summer class just because of her condition.)
I just wish there was something I could do. :(
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Another Home Sweet Home entry.
It was really touching, that incident last night. It was 12:30 when we arrived and as soon as I walked past the gate, still with pillow in tow, I hurried towards Margot's cage. And as soon as I said, "Margot!", all the other dogs started barking. I panicked as Conan's big voice just got bigger.
Then my dad followed and turned on the lights. Next to Margot's cage were Pepper and Georgie. They had been sharing the space, and my attention too. They kept barking, even as I approached them, and Pepper kept pushing Georgie away. (It was cute seeing a mini pin and a French bulldog in one cage. They looked like Timone and Pumbaa dog versions.)
And there was another bulldog barking below. My hands left Pepper's and Georgie's snouts and went to where Noelle (Favorite Puppy's mom) was. It was the first time we saw each other but she didn't show any agression at all. Then I heard smaller versions of Noelle's barks. "Babieeees!", I cried as I saw Favorite Puppy's brothers sticking their noses out of the small square holes. Funny how they still remembered me!
But the barking didn't stop. Big ones dominated. "Conan! Wandie!", I cried. The shepherds are all grown up! Wanda was nearly as big as Conan was! They jumped up and down as I started petting them and grabbing their noses.
It's really amazing how all of these dogs were thrilled when I arrived. I missed them all so much. :)
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I was really surprised to find out that Balungao, Pangasinan, my mom's hometown had a Kambing Festival, and it was even featured in the news, and two other talk shows! What even surprised me was that it was the brainchild of my uncle, who is one of the councilors. I'm really proud of Tito Phil and I can really say he has greatly inspired me to do my own thing. :)
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I'm so glad to be home. Even if I have to do my Soc Sci portfolio here and I have no excuse not to study Chem here, it's still great to be home.
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Katip with the girls.
Katipunan tripping earlier with Joy, Clauds, Meg, Shobe, and Mia. We just had to give moral support to Shobe. We went to Cello's, Starbucks, then settled at McDo (although we didn't eat there since we ended our day in SBC).
Siyempre, bonding. At hindi mawawala ang camwhoring. ;)
*With my favorite camwhore. What made us make those faces?
1st pic: Reaction pag nakita si Mawsi! 2nd pic: Reaction pag nakita si JEFFREY!
*Flirting 101. Learn the art from Mia and Clauds, Joy and Shobe, me and Meg!
Panalo kanina. :)
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For all you Brokeback fans, check this out!
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Long, long day. (Thanks, Manong!)
What a long, long day. Again, it didn't start right. I had to rush my Chem artwork until an hour before my 10:00a class. Plus I had to have my papers printed but Ate Faith and her boardmates were already at the new apartment to check it out. Stressful, stressful morning.
And so I was in a hurry to get to class in time. But then the taxi driver started a conversation.
Manong: So, estudyante ka ng UP, hija?
Me: Ahh, opo.
Manong: Naku, ibig sabihin matalino ka?
Me: Ahh ehh, hindi naman po.
Manong: Eh bakit mo nasabi yan? Ang hirap hirap makapasok dyan e!
Me: E Manong, pag nakapasok ka na po, hindi mo na mararamdaman na matalino ka!
We then started laughing about stuff like my experiences with certain professors, then he told me I should study hard. He also convinced me I should sideline as a UP prof. But there was this one thing he said that almost made me cry...
"Mag-aral kang mabuti, hija ah? Alam kong magsa-succeed ka sa buhay. Mabait kang tao e." (Opo, Manong, paninindigan ko yan!)
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My heart was beating so fast as Clauds, Shobe, Meg, and I went up the stairs to check if our standing in Chem lab was already posted. Unfortunately, our agony had to be prolonged til Thursday. On Friday, we'll know our lec standing and the 3rd LE results. How I wish I'd pass the 3rd LE!
BTW, I was the one who asked our Chem lec prof about the results. Haha.
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Had lunch at Kitaro (Katip) with Meg and Shobe. Pic galore, as usual. And it's been more than a year since I last used chopsticks. Marunong-runong pa naman, haha. All four of us ate a lot! And Meg 'took Shobe home' while Clauds and I decided to go home.
But we didn't. Just as we were about to hail a cab, Clauds asked if I wanted to go inside Ateneo. And we got inside without IDs, haha! We went bench-hopping then finally settled at the caf. And then we played around with my oil pastel set. I drew on the flirteh side while Clauds drew on the kinkeh one. (Ang kuliiiit!) And then we decided to go home.
On our way outside Ateneo, a familiar voice called Clauds. It was Virg sitting with Aids on the goal net! Kumusta naman?! "Welcome home, have a sit down!" Ginawang sandalan ang goal net? At teka, what were they doing there too? (They're from UP rin!) And so another kwentuhan session was made. Virg and Aids finally put their reviewers down. And we all leaned on the goal net. (And I dissected a weed. Nerrrd.) But then we realized it was getting late and we had to go. So we said goodbye to the two and set off.
But Starbucks was just a footbridge away. Eventually, we gave in to temptation (again!) and had some coffee and talked more nonsense (like we always do).
And then we FINALLY went home.
Pictures here!
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I'm going home (Dagups) on Friday! :D
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
More random thoughts.
May swimming party ang Khwekhkhwekh this Saturday after Chem exam. As usual, hindi na naman ako makakasama. Kailangan na kasing tapusin ng group namin nina Marianne at Ian yung Learning Project namin for 101. We'll be taping from Saturday night to Sunday noon.
Sana naman hindi lang yung swimming party yung last get-together namin this sem.
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Hindi na ako umaasa na makakuha ng CS at lalo nang US grades this sem. Maka-tres lang ako sa Chem ay masaya na ako. Pero sana makaabot naman ng 2.5 man lang diba? Aynako. Wala na.
Better luck next sem, like I said last sem. Haha.
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I wonder why ang tindi ng hang-over ko from Brokeback Mountain. I've only watched it once at right after ko siyang panuorin ay sinabi kong hindi ko siya nagustuhan. That was last Monday. Fast forward to this week, I keep raving about how I loved the kissing scene when they met again after four years. And how could I forget their motel love scene? Garrr. Nagustuhan ko pala ang Brokeback after all. :)
Or siguro dahil may live Brokeback akong nasaksihan sa isang play last last week at na-turn on ako dun sa acting Heath Ledger? ;)
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I'm a frustrated stalker. I've been stalking someone through the Internet the whole weekend but I never found his Friendster account nor his blog (if he has one). Sayang, sobrang curious ko pa naman about him after that live Brokeback thing! He was just so hot! And he was wearing this all-white outfit that showed brawn in the right areas! Gahhd, he is the perfectest, hottest guy I've ever seen on stage! :))
And I had a YM conversation last night with Nina, my Grade 1 best friend in Holy. Turns out we shared the same feelings toward this guy! Haha. Ang hot naman kasi talaga niya e! :D But she told me she knew who his girlfriend is and we were both like, "NO WAY! He's too hot for her!"
Aynako.
Tama na nga ang "lust". Lovelife naman! :P
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Lovelife ko ang Chem ngayon. Long exam na ulit sa Saturday e. Kaya friends na kami ulit ni Masterton at bigla siyang nabuhayan ng yellow at orange highlights. (First time kong mag-highlight ng Chem textbook sa buong buhay ko, sorry na.)
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Papasa kaya ako sa 3rd LE? Pagdasal niyo 'ko ha. :)
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He's really too hot for her! :P
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Shobe's group silkscreened a top for me and for everyone else who wanted one too as their Soc Sci 3 project. It's a campaign about being open-minded about gender and sexuality. (We're actually working on our own for our Soc Sci 3 class! Wait 'til you see ours! :D)
I definitely love the top! Joy and Mia also have tops exactly like mine! Yihee! Tas sabay-sabay naming isusuot one time! :D
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
'Coz summer is here...
*Cowgirl in the city.
Photography by Paolo Seen
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Chem 3rd long exam on Saturday. And I'll be needing a lot more luck than I needed last time.
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I'm just so glad the sem's almost over! :D
(Not glad though since I have a lot coming up this week.)
Man, I just can't wait for summer!
Will download a lot of reggae into Pink the iPod once I'm done with all my exams! :D
Saturday, March 11, 2006
The trouble with attachment.
I really should get used to my dad's being a breeder.
I just said goodbye to Favorite Puppy, one of our French bulldog Noelle's female pups. I was told not to name her otherwise I'll be too attached. Favorite Puppy was a name itself though.
It was love at first sight. As I carried her in my arms, she rested her head on my shoulder. I thought she was going to fall asleep right then and there but just a few seconds after I got her, she began licking my chin and as I tilted my head a bit lower to see her, she kissed me! And when I put her back where her brothers were, she moved towards me and reached for my hand with her little paw. And when my parents took me back to the apartment that day (and she and her brothers were in their cage already), I exclaimed "Bye, Favorite Puppy! I love you!". And she acknowledged by squealing.
From then on I just wished P40K was hell easier to raise so I could just buy her from my dad.
She was here again since Monday. But this time she wasn't just here to be checked out by someone else who was interested. She was finally going to be sold. So I lived each day with her as if it was going to be Friday the day after. Until Friday did come.
I didn't really show the buyer I was close to tears. I did say, however, how sweet she is and how easy it is to be attached to her. Hindi ka na siguro makakatulog mamaya, said the buyer.
But hey, business is business. I loved Favorite Puppy, but she just can't be called Favorite Puppy forever. Someone would be calling her Alavda (her name in the papers) already. And I'm sure she'll be in good hands since the one who bought her was a dog-lover anyway.
And so I counted and recounted the money, gave him a receipt, and handed him the puppy. But before they closed the gate, I patted her one last time and she gave me that kiss that made me fall in love with her in the first place.
Here's to another night of crying over a dog.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Ba-nuh-way. Sa-gay-duh.
In life, there are a lot of things we take for granted. Sometimes you realize how important they are when they're gone. Sometimes they just slap you in the face until you realize they've been there all along. We'd like to think it is not our fault we prioritize a lot, but sometimes, we are definitely guilty of prioritizing the wrong things.
Spending the weekend traveling for about 18 hours in a bus and six more in a jeep on a dirt road wasn't exactly my idea of a fieldtrip. I kept ranting last Friday about how unexcited I was about Sagada. I even did Dana's make-up for Ms. Psych even if I hadn't really packed for the trip. (Clauds was my make-up consultant, by the way.)
I remember forcing my butt to board Bus 1 as Ate Pam helped carry my overpacked bag. It was 10:30 in the evening and I just couldn't wait to get some shut-eye as soon as we started traveling. I was surrounded by strangers from the other Art Stud 1 and 2 classes (Mine seemed one too!) since Mico and Joy were a couple of rows behind us. I braced myself for the most anti-social field trip I would ever be having.
Halfway Lodge was good to us. The lady asked for a group of six to stay in room M3. And so Patti, Shean, Vikoy asked Clauds, Mico, and I if we wanted to join them. And to our surprise, we were assigned to the bottom floor where all 20 of us would be sharing one common bathroom. Magaling!
Day One was completely tiring but definitely loads of fun. We went hiking down Tam-An Village and challenged ourselves to a muddy hike back up Banaue Hotel. Rice and nilaga galore at Ethnic Village with M3 roommates. We managed to finish four and a half big platters of white and brown rice. I think I had four servings. We spent the rest of the afternoon haggling at stalls, and I got Haggling 101 from Clauds after I blew off a potential wall decor she wanted to get her hands on. "Ate, P190 na lang!" (The girl said it was for P200.) She also helped me haggle for P80 off the most expensive cowboy hat in the stall!
The night was fun, fun, fun. Mico kept bugging us about how he wanted to get his hands on the videoke mic while Clauds and I just kept shrugging. To our surprise, after that guy who sang like Gary V. and his friends left, Vikoy, Kitchie, Shean, Clauds, and I grabbed the song books and looked for the songs we wanted to sing. Mico didn't, he already knew the codes of those songs he wanted to sing and had them listed! And after that, we retreated to our beloved M3 room and took baths since we didn't want to have to line up along with the other 14 the next day. Mico and Vikoy ended the day with debates about what Gloria should do and about LSGH and Ateneo (their respective high schools) while Clauds and I ended ours with:
"Ang haba na ng hair mo!"
"Ikaw rin, ang haba na rin ng hair mo!"
(Yes, ganyan kami ka-intellectual.)
Day Two was great too. We woke up an hour and 48 minutes past our 4:00-wake-up time so we didn't have much time to take pics at Viewpoint (?) Lodge. We had to hurry to Sagada since it was three hours away. Clauds and I really wanted to ride on roof of Jeep #5 but there were too many of us who wanted to. We eventually decided to stay inside, which served to our advantage since it started raining after a few moments and it was really chilly. To make the trip more exciting, Jeep #4 ended up with two flat tires so its passengers had to evacuate to ours. Our 20-pax maximum limited high-power jeepney had to carry 17 more butts. Eventually the others were assigned to other jeepneys. Then we had lunch at some resto in Sagada I've already been to nine years ago. Clauds and I discovered it sold the best garlic bread in the world!
The rest of the afternoon was spent caving. We explored the corners of Sumaguing Cave, the biggest one in Sa-gay-duh. It was an afternoon of survival instincts kicking in, wet and dry limestone all over, cold, cold cave water, rappeling, Ay!s and Aray!s echoing here and there, clinging to stalactites and stalagmites, and of course, stepping on bat dung which everyone else just thought as mud. It was fulfilling going through all that again after nine years!
The jeepney ride back to Ba-nuh-way was a lot more quiet but that didn't stop us from goofing around. The radio played a lot of new wave and a lot of jolog songs from years ago. We soon found ourselves singing a couple of lines from Jolina Magdangal's Laging Tapat. (Guess who sang the bridge, haha!)
The bus ride back home was even more silent. We were all tired anyway. But that didn't stop us from taking more pictures! But as soon as the bus started moving, Clauds my eternal seatmate and I fell into that deep sleep we've always wanted to have since Friday night.
The trip to Banaue/Sagada made me realize how much I've been missing out of life. It was only then that I realized how important a lot of things were and I'm sure I wouldn't have noticed those things if I hadn't pushed through the trip.
I realized how important it is for culture to be preserved. Strip a nation of its different cultures and you rid it of its identity. I feel proud that our brothers and sisters from the high lands have held on and fought for their future acorss time and change. Then again, I feel sorry for most of us who seem to have forgotten about our own cultures from our own hometowns.
I never knew how those strangers from my 7:00a class turned out to be those who would pull me out of the waters, give me that extra push upward, catch me as I jump into one of the deeper pools of cave water, and simply be the ones to spice up this whole Sagada experience.
I also realized how much I've underestimated my body for the longest time. I was never the athlete, but my body didn't fail me throughout the whole trip, especially as we paved Sumaguing. I realized as long as you keep your mind set that you can conquer, no matter how steep, deep, cold, and slippery something is, you will conquer.
And the last? I've realized how our Art Studies 1 professor, Prof. Felipe de Leon Jr., has made such a big impact on my life. Nevermind if I have to wake up extra early for his class. Nevermind if it was the last GE on my list. I have learned an awful lot. And the trip made me appreciate him more since he seemed more open to our opinions (at last!) and he smiled a lot more. He even kept pulling my cap off, telling me to stop hiding my face.
I feel rather bad since this only happened now, when the sem is gearing towards its end. Then again, I'm glad it still happened. I met new friends, shared experiences with them, learned to treasure and respect other cultures, had lots of fun, visited Banaue and Sagada again after nine yearsskinned my elbows against limestone but still had lots of fun, spent one great weekend with a great bunch of people...
Funny how sometimes it takes years for our lives to change... and how sometimes it just takes a day or two.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
I want...
...a Lilo & Stitch and/or 50 First Dates soundtrack for my birthday! :)
...my hair to grow longer na. It's taking forever to grow.
...to see Margot already. She's giving birth soon and I want to see how she's doing. It's been forever since I last went home to Dagupan!
...to start on my Soc Sci 3 portfolio but I still don't have any idea what kind of portfolio I'll be doing.
...to meet someone who knows how I could contact The Agencie. Anyone?
...taho so early in the morning!
...to start boxing soon! Kuya Wally's still busy and I don't have anyone to go boxing with yet since he won't let me go boxing alone with all those pervs out there. Daryl, hanap ka na kung saan tayo pwede, dali!
...to fast-forward to Friday. I'm so excited to go to Sagada! I haven't been there in nine years. And this time, I'll get to spend it with friends. Clauds, Mico, Joy (Co), ready na ba kayo? :D
...you to answer this. Thanks!
